PONDERING............JUST MY THOUGHTS TODAY........
"To be able to look back upon one's life in satisfaction ~ is to live twice."
Being a woman "of a certain age" I can honestly say I spend some of my time pondering over my life as I have lived it.
I have made many, many, many mistakes and have hurt many people in the process.
I have tried to make amends when possible and have tried not to keep repeating the SAME mistake over and over. Sometimes that has been easier said than done.
However, more often than not, I feel fairly satisfied with my life. Let me clarify this statement....this is not my life with my children...or my life with family.....but my OWN LIFE.
I have finally been able to forgive myself for earlier mistakes and come to realize that I really did do the best I could have done at the time....with the tools I had in my tool belt. Now I would do a lot of things differently today.....but you know what they say about hindsight.
I have tried to spend my life "making memories" and for the most part I have succeeded. I have spent a good deal of my life "in recovery" and have worked on spiritual aspects of myself for most of my life.....and since we are all "a work in progress" am still doing that.
Each day that passes I make sure to put the memory in the vault...to be able to retrieve it in later years.....because if the truth be known......that is all many of us will have in later years.
I want to be able to look back on my life with satisfaction and to be able to LIVE IT TWICE.
How about you dear friends?
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