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ALONE IN THE WILDERNESS..................................


FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO FOLLOW MY BLOG I HAVE POSTED BEFORE OF MY LACK OF FAMILY....ONE OF THE REASONS IS BECAUSE I HAVE A VERY SMALL FAMILY....BUT ANOTHER REASON IS BECAUSE OF ADDICTION PROBLEMS THAT HAVE BEEN SO PERVASIVE IN MY LIFE....AS A CHILD AND AN ADULT....it just seems as though it will never disappear...

I have been in recovery for many...many...many years...but it seems as though many of the people I love are not able to conquer this problem.

The anger...mental distress and depression that goes along with this
dis.....ease is at times overwhelming...

TO THOSE OF YOU OUT THERE WHO HAVE NEVER BEEN TOUCHED BY THESE PROBLEMS....YOU ARE SO VERY FORTUNATE....AND TO THOSE OF YOU WHO HAVE....MY HEART GOES OUT TO EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU because I know all about an aching heart.

THIS POST IS NOT ABOUT HOLIDAY CHEER AND FOR THAT I AM SORRY
sometimes I do feel like the little tree in the above picture...but I do know that my God is always sending angels my way and believe me.....I AM ALWAYS ON THE LOOKOUT FOR THEM!!!!

as always,

Jo
       Photo : Judith Seco/Better Photo.com

Comments

  1. KimmieDecember 15, 2010 at 4:20 PM

    Hugs

    x

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  2. AnonymousDecember 15, 2010 at 4:29 PM

    As one who is 24 years recovering every day with a family full of addictions of one kind or another, I understand. I chose to leave them behind and move toward happiness. There are still days when it's tough but all in all, I choose sobriety and a joyful heart in my walk. Stay strong and this too shall pass. HUGS. Tammy

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  3. Julie MarieDecember 15, 2010 at 4:49 PM

    Dear Jo... I have been blessed that no one in my family has suffered from any of the addictions you speak of... my heart goes out to you, as well as my prayers... xoxo Julie Marie

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  4. GerryARTDecember 15, 2010 at 4:53 PM

    As you know, bloggers have the very biggest of hearts.
    From reading your blog I've the opinion that you have the strongest of these hearts.
    Happiest Holiday Hugs,
    Gerry

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  5. VictoriaDecember 15, 2010 at 4:59 PM

    HUgs JO...My heart goes out to you..wishing you much love, comfort... and wishing many bright stars shining above you and that you don;t feel so alone ....and your angels are always with you! I know it!
    Hugs and love
    Kiki~

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  6. Sissie's Shabby CottageDecember 15, 2010 at 5:05 PM

    Everyday is a new day. Thanks for sharing from the heart.

    hugs
    Sissie

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  7. Blessed SerendipityDecember 15, 2010 at 5:13 PM

    If I could give you a real HUG right now, I would. Prayers and love go out to you. You are not alone.

    xo,
    Danielle

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  8. Debra She Who SeeksDecember 15, 2010 at 6:18 PM

    I think there are probably very, very few people or families who have not been affected by addiction issues. Your recovery process is the most important thing. A big bravo and hug to you!

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  9. TerriDecember 15, 2010 at 6:47 PM

    I value your honest sharing. Thank you so much for sharing from your heart. I am sending you a big hug of LOVE.
    Terri

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  10. Lori EDecember 15, 2010 at 7:02 PM

    We don't always have to be full of smiles and light. If we acknowledge the down feelings they lose their grip on us. It is when we try to suppress them that they get worse.

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  11. mxtodis123December 15, 2010 at 7:03 PM

    I'm going on 20 years. Know that you are not alone. ((((Hugs))))
    Mary

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  12. joanneDecember 15, 2010 at 8:55 PM

    addiction has stolen many things from me, both my own addictions and those of my siblings. I have been able to come through the storm but they choose not to and for that very reason we do not have relationships with each other. A fact that is very heart wrenching at this time of year. I stand with you and that little tree...shine on.

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  13. Vicki/JakeDecember 15, 2010 at 9:18 PM

    Wow, Tammy said a mouthful. Mary knows also...
    We're always here for you Jo. Stay strong.

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  14. Castles Crowns and CottagesDecember 16, 2010 at 2:39 AM

    Precious soul,

    In whatever way, most of us know some pain that is ever so hard to shake off....it is as if it is part of who we are. Know that we out here care about each other, and let us contact one another always, and especially on this most holy of holidays just so that we know we are not alone. I too have no family left, but for other reasons. Oh! THE DAY WHEN ALL PAIN SHALL BE DONE AWAY WITH!!!!!! Hugs to you dearest, Anita

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  15. Sue G.December 16, 2010 at 4:19 AM

    Jo, stay strong! We're all cheering for you. Take care.

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  16. My Vintage StudioDecember 16, 2010 at 6:21 AM

    Wishing you a beautiful day!

    Just wanted to let you know that even coming from a large family...you can still feel lonely. This time of year can be paninful.
    Sending you a hug.

    Merry Christmas!
    Sharon

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  17. Cheryl @ TFDDecember 16, 2010 at 7:04 AM

    (((Hugs))) to you, Jo.

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  18. LemonyRenee'December 16, 2010 at 8:26 AM

    I do not have addiction issues in my family, but I do share with you a want for a family in which we can feel safe, accepted, and loved. I think I share some of your struggles this holiday season; the "alone-ness, which I think is different from loneliness. It is not all singing carols and baking cookies, is it. (((hugs)))

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  19. KellyDecember 16, 2010 at 8:28 AM

    Hugs to you Jo~ Better things are coming your way...you just gotta believe!!

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  20. My Grama's SoulDecember 16, 2010 at 8:52 AM

    To all the dear ladies who have commented on this little post...I offer this quote "Thank heaven for angels who help us fly when our wings are too tired".

    Josette

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  21. PamelaDecember 16, 2010 at 1:39 PM

    Dear sweet Jo we all seem to have our own crosses to bare. I so admire your courage to share.
    After moving away I now as well have a very small family. I have struggled with a different type of addiction my whole life. I sadly struggle with my relationship with my mother and for me( and my marriage and child) the best choice was moving away. I gave up family and many friends in order to heal and discover my own self worth.
    Somedays i would very much like to blog about it just to release alot of pain.
    I'll be sending you thoughts of love and strength!
    Pamela xo

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  22. wendyDecember 18, 2010 at 7:03 PM

    This post touched me deeply as I just lost a son to addiction. My beautiful son, 35 years old, passed away just this Nov. 11th. His body and ability to fight any longer finally gave up.
    I understand the devastation of addiction. It is a difficult demon for many. My prayers are with you.

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